How much was she expected to handle? So many years of fighting for things that were supposed to be hers in the first place. Why should she have to fucking turn it around and build it up after it’s been burnt down or stolen away. When it was her fault, yes she should be the one to fix it. Accountability and responsibility. That’s how those things work. But what about when it was just life?
A resounding yes plays through her ears. That’s how that also worked. Even when you didn’t expect it or deserve it. You still have to mend it or rebuild whatever life has decided to fuck yo or destroy. Accountability and responsibility. That’s how that works.
So she did. Using the fire anger powered or the determination of someone who has no plan b or people who have no one to fall back on or help them.
She did this without asking for pity or help (when it could be avoided).
But this last time. This time that made it so she could say this has happened numerous times, it broke something.
Deep down inside her. Snapped so viciously she could hear it in her head echoing like she was in a hollow spot. And when the sound subsided all Bella felt was…
She’d fix what was needed and then wash her hands of it. She had no fire to push her. Just the mechanical muscle memory to guide her.
Bella was almost completely void