I realized when I was 10, 11 years that she started to keep me with her
regularly. She always aware of everywhere I was all the time and she always had an eye on me somewhere.
She makes me feel seen. Bad things stopped happening
when she had an eye on me . Then when she was busy, shit always went sideways.
Every time.
When she was home and around i felt safe.
I still feel safe now, about her taking me everywhere and
i knew she alway knew when something was up even when I didn’t have it in me to say anything.
I knew damn well she always had my back, particularly
when Beau threw me across the kitchen. Especially after i told her about the Noone stuff. As much as he had wired me to believe that you would throw me out and hate me.
I knew she wasn’t going to, because anytime that I was
with her she caused chaos to the ones who messed with me.
She is always on my team.
Even when the abortion happened, I was scared even then too.
Still i knew she she’d be able to help me through it.
Most of all, she is the one who I have never had to worry that I would have ever have to utter the words…
Tell Me You Love Me
Until next time if I feel like it – Bambam