The clouds floating over her head as the storm rolled in. It was a good relflection of how Bella was feeling about the last year. She wasn’t sure what was worse, that she knew she would feel this way or the can’t that…..
She always stopped there. Because she wasn’t sure finish that sentence. All Bella wanted was someone she could tell her secret to because it was eating her alive. The overwhelming fucking regret some days was enough to bring her to her knees.
And she wasn’t even sure why she felt this way or why she felt this way.
Well that’s what she told herself. But Bella knew. She couldn’t forgive herself for watching her heart walk away that day.
Of course at the time she didn’t m is she was. She had no idea that particular hug was to be the last, or that particular kiss was the last she would taste his sweet lips or feels his strong arms around her. That she was to never see that smile that made her heart jump ever again.
The Toymaker was her person. She stumbled upon him at The Boundary and it was like no other before. The world has stopped and when it started again, everytjimg about them fell together almost flawlessly. There was a comfort she had never known. He adored her for exactly who she was.
When they were together the weight she carried felt lighter. She felt peace like she had never even imagined was possible for her. Her soul rested with him.
And she could tell, she could feel it was the same for him.
And unknowingly, that day at least, she let him go.
With his departure, he took a piece of Bella. A piece she would forever feel the absence of.
In this particular situation it had been his arrival in her life that had cut away a string in the disentanglement of Bella and Linus.