What a goddamn blur self destruction could be. It was and wasn’t as fun as Bella remembered. This time felt more deliberately painful. And so very dark. It had never … Continue reading Down the Rabbit Hole
This wasn’t even the beginning of the end. She had thought it was. It was more like a warning of things yet to come. It wasn’t subtle and therefore Bella … Continue reading Holes
Perhaps it was the confidence boost of the momentary contempt, or the fact that she was just starting to go numb after months of this fucked up situation with Linus. … Continue reading Mutually Assured Destruction
Of all the things Bella was losing, she never once thought she would get to the place where she’d never want to kiss Linus.
The list of little things that are slowly stopping was getting longer every day. When he looked at her, it wasn’t with love. There were glimpses of other things,
Sadness, anger…. Longing.
Scarily enough it was no longer punching Bella in the gut. There was a ping in the bottom of her stomach and the rush of sadness over. Though that feeling felt more habitual and carried less weight.
Perhaps Linus had begun to finally see that his grip on her had not only loosened, but left.
Carrying away with it another string in the disentanglement of Bella and Linus
It was the realization that she had actually always been this depressed. That Bella had always been this lost, yet still yield the ability to maintain some level of joy … Continue reading Future Joy
The usual response to these situations were to disappear. Unfortunately Bella had realized that even when she chose to stay that people forgot she was there. How was it that … Continue reading Trash
Why did it seem so necessary for Bella to be the villain? She pondered this sipping her coffee. How long had she had to deal with this unrealistic and shitty … Continue reading Villains and Heroes
She thought she could save him, then she thought she couldn’t. Bella began to see Linus as even he did not know he needed her to. She started to see … Continue reading Cracked Rose Coloured Glasses
She spent so much time trying to prove something to him, Bella lost herself. She saw all the walls he put up, the isolation. She saw the pattern if he … Continue reading Bad Medicine
Bella was starting to see him unravelling. It looked not new. But it was new to her. She had spent so much time lost, romanticizing what she and Linus had … Continue reading Unravelled