Nothing like a little self sabotage to clear your path. Bella walked into that party with the whole hearted intention to find that one who could help her achieve her … Continue reading Big Fires Everywhere
The words meshed together. She felt this overwhelming Deja Vu. Had she wrote them? Or was it that she’d stared at them so much over the years that they were … Continue reading M
Of all the things Bella was losing, she never once thought she would get to the place where she’d never want to kiss Linus.
The list of little things that are slowly stopping was getting longer every day. When he looked at her, it wasn’t with love. There were glimpses of other things,
Sadness, anger…. Longing.
Scarily enough it was no longer punching Bella in the gut. There was a ping in the bottom of her stomach and the rush of sadness over. Though that feeling felt more habitual and carried less weight.
Perhaps Linus had begun to finally see that his grip on her had not only loosened, but left.
Carrying away with it another string in the disentanglement of Bella and Linus
She guessed that somethings would never change. When Bella was feeling low and shitty she would always find herself alone. Even when he was right beside her and could see. … Continue reading Angry Closure
“One day you’re going to explode” she had said to Bella. At the time Bella had jusy shrugged it off. What was going to happen, would happen. Deep down though … Continue reading Scratches and Scars
It finally hit hwe what that was. It was a feeling. A feeling so familiar, she had lived with it for years and probably over looked the obvious because she … Continue reading Almost Completely Unravelled
Bella read the leaflet over and over. The side effects, what the medication was for. Looking for something to give her the push she needed to just open the bottle … Continue reading Swallow Them Pills
It had taken so many years for her to not only collect all the parts, but successfully put them together to see the picture in all its traumatic gaslit glory. … Continue reading Life’s A Puzzle
Bella had always been a creature of habit. She had to learn how to feel. Worse yet she had to teach herself HOW to feel. It was a devastating lesson. … Continue reading drinking til we cant feel feelings
Bella was lost in thought as she helped Nose paint that floor. Her mind caught up in the mess that was her life in that moment. She knew exactly how … Continue reading Mar The Paint